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The Struggle with Being Resilient

Kristina H

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What does “resilient” mean?

The actual definition of the word is:

adjective: resilient

  1. (of a person or animal) able to withstand or recover quickly from difficult conditions. “babies are generally far more resilient than new parents realize”synonyms:strong, tough, hardy

For myself, the word has become a Label. I carry the word with me, every time I share my story:

I come from a childhood and teen years of struggles with abuse, attempted suicide, eating disorders and a huge “gift basket” full of souvenirs. But IT’S OKAY. Why? Because I am resilient.

Or, am I?

I won’t lie. I don’t talk to many people in my world about my past, because I prefer it stays where it is. Once you talk about it, you breathe life into again and allow it to get into your brain and your heart. You have no control over how it haunts you. So, I leave it behind me. This is also Okay.

Through my 40 plus years of life, I have been dealt shitty situations which were never in my control, and I refuse to play the victim. Where it is applicable, however, I will choose to share tidbits of my experiences in order to help others understand the emotions and torment that come from dealing with abuse. My daughter, who is now 25, knows the basis of my…

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Kristina H

Writer of relationships / early childhood and mental health . Poetry and fiction dabbler