Your touch of sharp blades,
Your stare of hot embers
Your glares of disappointment,
I will forever remember
The slap in my face,
The forged “I’m sorry”
Same old treatment,
Different story.
The wish for approval,
The hope for real love,
The realization of the lack
Thereof.
I can’t call you mom,
You are just “Mother”
You won’t love me back,
But you cherish my brother
It has always been lonely
And it hurts in my heart,
The words that you vomit,
Have torn me apart.
So I give you forgiveness,
And true absolution,
For me to live on,
Its the only solution.
The lies you have told
The fake smiles, the deceit
Have knocked me down,
But I got back on my feet
Dear Mother, I love you
And one day you’ll see
That you missed out
In loving me.
