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A Clear Picture of the Cloud of Anxiety and Depression
You wake in the morning and its snowing outside, you know you have an hour commute ahead, and you call your boss telling her, “I just can’t make it”. You can tell she isn’t happy with you, as there is a big meeting today, and you couldn’t care less. You get frustrated with her for not being “supportive” and you feel like going back to bed. Within an hour the sun is shining and you punish yourself for not making the drive. You spend the day fretting and wondering if everyone in the office is talking about you, and you hope that they are not all mocking you. You lose sleep over it, to the point where you want to call in again the next day and just spend the day in bed.
> Work is so overwhelming, that its easier to do NOTHING all day and another day of deadlines draw near. You panic and try to get the tasks finished and get angry at yourself for being lazy and careless. You beat yourself up to the point that you no longer believe you can do ANYTHING right. You go back to bed.
> You hate noise, but silence is worse
> You want a hug, but you want to be left alone.
> You want to exercise, but the thought of peeling your tired body out of bed is too much. You make excuses
> You want friends, but only when they aren’t interrupting your “alone” time
